Feeling forgotten…

Have you ever felt forgotten? Left out? Not a part of something?

Well I do. I’ve been that way most of my life. I’ve never been a part of a clique. I’ve always been a bit on the fringe and that’s been just fine with me. I like being my own person, doing things my own way. But… sometimes… you can still feel left out.

Today is one of those days. I don’t want to get into the details because I’m not mad, I’m not really even hurt, I’m just disappointed and I feel left out. A friend, someone I care about a lot, made a point of thanking some people for helping them thru something and I didn’t so much as get a mention. I was not looking for any recognition, but being left out when it was being levied, well I didn’t want that either.

Sometimes I just feel like noise. Blending into the background of people’s lives, only being listened for when it’s convenient or when I’m needed.

Makes you wonder why you even bother sometimes…



Wow look at all the comments!

IMHO, You need to boost your self confidence and stop seeking approval from others. If you truly weren’t looking for recognition you wouldn’t have missed it.

Bear in mind - this is coming from someone who is SOOO well adjusted, so take it with a big honking grain of salt. And I can’t say that I haven’t felt exactly the same as you before.

F-it anyway - you have a new iPod to WATCH!

   

OH NO! I hate that feeling. I make sure I’m never left out. YOu have to make yourself heard sweetie! Being gay, you’re endowed with certain extraordinary capabilities. If it helps, sometimes when I do feel left out, I reverse it and ignore certain people. I know, it’s mean, but it works for my self-esteem :)

   

Peter, you’re absolutely right. I realized that I had not mentioned you in person in my pcast last week - about 10 minutes after I had posted the show. I didn’t know how to fix it without re-recording the show.

Please don’t feel that other people I had mentioned have any more or less importance than you. It was towards the end of my podcast and I rushed thru a bunch of shows. But there is NO EXCUSE for not mentioning your support these last few months.

I’m sorry.

   

Go on... say something. You know you want to.