Okay,

I couldn’t bear to even look at my Mac on Sunday nite, after having an Internet connection at Mike’s. Sunday was an okay day. I did get Mike’s numbers into his phone, but I learned something crappy about myself. I am destined to give people more then enough chances to disappoint me. I always think people are going to do something extraordinary when I should really just be glad they are there. I doubt think it was intentional but something Mike did caused great disappointment to me on Sunday morning. While working (tirelessly I must add!) on his damn phone, and his network (yes again), he was thanking me and telling me how much he appreciated my help and what a good friend I was, he said…”Let me ask you something… do you like this?” and with that he handed me a white box. I opened it and it was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. It was a Volvo R watch (if you don’t know what the R is…check here.) It was a beautiful dress watch that looked like the speedometer of the S60R. I’ve never seen a watch so cool, blue metal with etched R and numbers that looked like a speedometer and even a digital element at the bottom that looks like the Odometer, just fantastic. I told him it was gorgeous. I loved it. And you know what I actually thought he was going to say, good take it. Thanks for helping me so much. But what he actually said was… “Oh good I didn’t know if I was gonna keep it my self or give it to my cousin.” Now to be fair to Mike, he didn’t know I felt this way nor did I really expect him to do that for me, it was more that I let myself think it. It’s more about the fact that even though I know how people are, I always hope they’ll be different. I really am not upset at all with Mike, just myself. I should know better. I really shouldn’t hope for so much from people.

Music playing during post: It’s Beginning to Look A Lot Like Christmas - Bing Crosby