Today was rough. Bad day with dial up only. I am going to take the rest of the week off and work the weekend. It’s not all bad… I can go to the beach now!

Tonight was a riot. We ate at home Shawn made a great meal of Spaghetti Meatballs. After dinner we watched some TV and relaxed. However during the 11pm news they had a story about Jill Scott’s new CD and about her signing them at Tower Records. They cut to the footage of some patrons and damn if the first person they showed wasn’t my ex Eric. Looked the same except for the dreads (not so good!). What a shock! I haven’t seen or thought of him in years! Even my dad recognized him LOL.

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Monday brought rain, and Rebecca and the end of the wireless. We went to dinner 2nite at this place called Tory’s or Toby’s it was a 50’s style diner and it was AWFUL. The service was crap and expensive. It took us twice as long to get our food as my parent’s table. It was terrible.

Well it was a nice day working at the shore and relaxing. Hope tmrw will be as good even with the lack of the wireless.

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Well we’re here. It’s a nice place. Bit of a suprise tho…the place had no towels (not a biggie since I alway bring my own) or sheets (I’ve never seen a place with no sheets!). We had to run out and buy some at the local 5 & 10 (who knew they had them still?). The bed is comfy and we are all smiling. Bad news, no cable (well they have it but no highspeed at least). I have found someone’s wireless connection so I’m posting.

We went to the point diner 2nite and I swear the maitre d was flirting. He was hella cute. About my height and my weight, olive complexion and black hair, goatee and a pretty smile. Said he was afraid of clowns…I shoulda joked don’t worry I’ll protect you. It was funny, even my mom noticed!

The food was off the hook… Fried Scallops mmmm!

Well i guess it’s bed time!

Zya

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Well it’s time for my vacation, well sorta. We’re off for a week at the shore but I will be working the whole week. I have a project that I need to get done and I am short on vacation days. I only hope the beach house has cable so I can hook up our cable modem.

We’re going with my family so It should be fine. Here’s hoping for good weather!

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Well the darn redesign is going very much slower than expected. I hope to be able to get some work done on vacation next week. I am not happy with Haloscan for the comments. I dont know what to do with that. It feels like it’s gonna take forever. Oh well….

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Why do I even blog. I never seem to have time, I’ve been so damn moody these days and I never even seem to feel comfortable saying anything here. I don’t know who the hell even reads it, and the ones I do know read it, hear the crap before I write it.

Anyway, site re-design was going well, hit a wall, got back up and then stalled. I haven’t done anything the past few nites. I gotta stay my ass offline, I only sign on from time to time but when I do, crap always happens. The other nite some guy out of the blue gave me the “liar, cheat…you’re involved and shouldn’t speak to people” speech. “Does your boyfriend know you’re talking online?” yes fucker, he’s sitting next to me. OY!

Next week is vacation sorta, going to the shore with Shawn and my family, I am not actually taking vacation days but working remotely because I have so much work to do on the Support Site redesign. But still working at the beach for 8-10 hrs is still better than going into work. I hope they have Comcast there so I can hook up my wireless and vonage line.

This week has been kinda frustrating… I think the Saint is mad at me. I don’t know but he never really goes without speaking to be but he hasn’t messaged me in a while and I am sure he saw me online. I dunno if I should say something to him or not.

I talked to Marques last nite, I feel bad I’ve been neglecting people. I just need to get my head straight, but even that doesn’t seem to work. Radio Silence worked somewhat… I shoulda blogged it tho… Vu’s of course been good to me and kept me sane. If it wasn’t for him and Shawn I’d be postal.

Good news was I got to drive that nice 2004.5 S40 T5 all week, boy do I like that car. I hope we can get Shawn one, it’s sweet. Still no progress this week for the house, I am so sick of arguing with them, and Sue’s dog got pissed on by the white trash family up the street’s Lab. That dog is so bad and I am sick of hearing them yell at it. Also the blinds came on Monday, they look so nice on the windows, now to just get the Family Room windows tinted and we’ll be done awhile.

I suppose I have wasted enough of my lunch break. It’s back to Presentation Skills class for my 4th and final presentation…

I hope I can shake this melancholy, it keeps coming back… as I said before….DOUBLE SIGH.

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Ok…I know no one reads this thing but…I am going off air for a while. I have had too much crap this weekend and I am getting tired of being there for people and having them not be there for me.

I need a freaking break. And I waste too much time talking to people who don’t care about me as much as I care about them. I will be offlne for a while. I just need some me time.

I will be back as soon as I get my head settled and I will hopefully have my site redesign done.

Zya
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In a new effort to be more exposing of my feelings, and less worried abt who reads my blog…

Friends are a bitch. They can be good, they can be bad, the good ones can hurt you and the bad ones can make you want to jump off a building.

It sucks. My best friend lives in LA. I didn’t plan it that way but the stars made it that way. I wish he was here, but he’s not. I have lots of friends around here but none like him. I am sorry if that makes anyone mad but it’s true.

I know it’s not good to be bitter or nasty but I really wanted to do that thing this weekend and now I can’t, I am not really mad at him (he knows who he is but I doubt he ever has read my blog so..) but I am sad. I sometimes feel like I make myself to available to people who don’t do the same, though I think lots of people would say I am not available. But I am in my own way, there isn’t a person on earth who knows me who wouldn’t agree that any time any one needs help be it on a Mac or a PC, I’m there. Maybe I need to let people know what they are to me? Steve, you’re my wild side support guy, Vu you’re my life support guy, Mike you’re my Volvo support guy, Fig, you’re my Coding and smile in the face of adversity guy etc… I don’t know.

Sigh… enuff rambling.

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Let me tell you, coding is hard work! I got the navigation finally not only working the way I wanted, but also looking the way I wanted. The changing color scheme gave me some worries as some of the colors aren’t really good when they are text colors, I finally decided to makes it a fixed color that uses the highlight color to show where you are.

I had some issues with the color schemes but I am working through them. Thanks much to Fig Chutney for helping me with it all. He’s the best. You can visit him at www.bweir.com. He has been so helpful and provided such wonderful comic relief. I love our “coding parties”. I do want to change some of the colors again but I did this weekend get the nestled style sheets working so I only have to change common things once.

I am hoping to have the breadcrumbs working shortly, and then it’s template and copying and pasting time!

Wish me luck.

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This past weekend was great. We didn’t really do anything but it was great. This week we moved our office from the second floor to the first in our house, we have a room that is sort of a room for a formal dining room but we already have a family room and a loft that is pretty much 2 living rooms already. So we have decided (even though it might take some time, that we are going to close up that room (it has a half wall into our dining room) and put some cool doors in and make a study there. It’s nice, and much cooler, anyone who has been around us knows the issues we’ve had with the office where it used to be. It used to get so hot with the sun pouring in all day and the computers and being above the garage! Anyway…

Friday, Shawn went to visit his gran, and I was home alone for a bit, I finished moving stuff around up stairs into the old office (which is now the guest room). I also sadly pissed Vu off bad. I feel so bad I got so passionate about what we spoke of that I upset him. I know he’s gonna read this (one of the few who actually do) and I am truly sorry.

I spent a good part of the evening speaking to two new online buddies, Keith and Stan. I met Keith on gay.com, he’s a very cool Mac user (also left handed WHOOT!) who just is a joy to talk to. I met Stan on the tribe.net. He is a member of a few of my Tribes and he is cool too, wicked funny and witty. I really enjoyed my convos with both of them, if either of you are reading this…Thanks!

Saturday was a nice bummy day. We woke up and watched both 13 Going On 30 and Hellboy. They were both excellent movies. All day I spoke with Keith and Stan, and as always Vu, but I also met another tribe.net friend, Zell. Zell is way cool too we even found out we both like Lego. I had a dinner at Sue’s, she made me a birthday dinner of a garlic stuffed Roast Beef cooked on the grill. It was fantastic! After, we watched some TiVo and I worked on macboyx.com a while and spoke with my buddies again.

Sunday was a good day too, we got up early and had breakfast and did some shopping, we then came home, hung the pictures we bought, watched Malibu’s Most Wanted - not so good but funny, and just hung out. I spoke with Zell and Keith and Vu for a while and did some major work on macboyx.com, it’s going well. I also got to spend a good bit of time on the phone with Chong (about an hour and a half) which was great. I ended my evening chatting with Rob and then went to bed.

All in all a good weekend.

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